Looking Back: I want to be strong

12 Nov

Back when I sat down and tried to figure out what I really wanted for my life, the first thing I came up with was to be strong. And not just, I can lift 100 pounds strong, but mentally and emotionally strong as well.

Looking back on how I outlined this over a year ago, I am really proud of myself, in a way I hadn’t expected. I’m not exactly where I want to be quite yet, but hey, life’s a journey right?

Becoming physically strong. I’ve started working out again with much more regularity. I’ve even attempted CrossFit which seems to be all the rage now, and I can certainly see why. Part of what got me going was this video. Somehow, it hit me. Yes, I wanted to be able to wear skinny jeans and look fabulous, but it was more than that. My goal, when I put it on paper (or in electronic form as it may have been), was not to be thin, it was to be strong. And I think I’m getting there.

Becoming emotionally strong. As with most families, my family is a challenge. Dealing with them and with the situations that may arise is not always easy. But, I’ve found that I’m getting to a place where I can deal with the things that come my way. I still cry sometimes, but I don’t think that is a sign that I’m not becoming more emotionally strong. Being confident in my choices, finding calmness in the craziness, and understanding that I can’t change other people, but I can decide how I will react helps me to move forward in a strong and supportive-of-others way. Again, still getting there, but I’m happy with where I am.

Becoming mentally strong. I am proud to say that I am more than half way through my grad school program. It hasn’t been easy, but it has been great. I have learned so much and have gained confidence in my abilities at work because of the things I’m learning. There have been times when I have questioned this decision because of the money or the time, but I know that this was the best decision I could have made for myself when it comes to my education, and it’s really paying off.

I am becoming the person I want to be. And I’m so thankful to the people who have been there with me along the way to support me.


3 Responses to “Looking Back: I want to be strong”

  1. Katie W November 12, 2012 at 3:10 pm #

    I think this is an awesome update! Good for you trying CrossFit. I think I’m too “lazy” for that… Ha!

    But we need to talk about your emotional strength. I’m certainly struggling with it and would love to hear how your making progress 🙂

    Also, I’m SO happy to hear you say that grad school has been a good decision! I’m only taking one class but I know it can be a struggle and it’s REALLY GOOD to hear that your confident with this decision. I think that confidence is a sign of growth and I’m proud of you. Plus, learning is fun! And, hopefully, it will pay to be mentally strong 🙂

    PS – I know this isn’t an email but we need to hang out! Wed or Thurs maybe?

  2. Kristen November 13, 2012 at 12:11 am #

    I have always loved the sub-categories you defined for being strong. I know that all of these efforts will be on-going as life changes, and I’m thrilled that you can see progress since the time you defined this goal.

    I have particularly noticed your gains towards emotional strength in the face of new challenges on that front — I think you’ve been strong in those new situations and coming to a new level of comfort in the old, familiar challenges as well.

    What a great range of strength you’re capturing here — I’m excited for you on all fronts.


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